what-are-pants asked: youre kidding??
Kidding to what?
Today, I drove by where I used to buy heroin. I stopped in front. I got out of the car. My hands were shaking the entire time. I pulled out cash. I went back to my car. sat down, and drove away. I got home, and cried in my driveway before I made it in. took an hour cold shower then laid in my basement. I wanted it so bad. I needed it so bad. It still controls me. It will always control me. I can never win. I went to dinner with my parents tonight, and tried to be fun, I thought about heroin the entire time.
I hate how much control it has over me.
The only time I don’t want it, is when I am singing.
Not to be corny: Music - My antidrug